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2004-12-20T23:40:00.000-08:00

well, merry christmas peeps

-in advance

2004-11-26T05:27:00.000-08:00

2004-10-27T03:10:00.000-07:00

heys heys.im back.yup.from a long ten days trip to bangkok.was pretty fun and we played our best.kinda wasted in the doubles but nvm its over and we played quite well anyway.Jeffrey and Shawn's doubles lasted the longest.dey managed the quarter finals which was really good b4 they lost to the 2nd seed.it was kinda like having a holiday there cause there was much shopping, eating and lazing around.hahax.really ate alot and bought alot manx.we changed shirts with quite a number of our opponents.got to noe e malaysians quite well and had loads of fun.except the day where i kana food poisoning and was admitted to hospital cause i ran a fever of 39 deg.was put on drip and did lots of blood test.so many holes on my skin now.hahax. but i was discharged aft one day cux my fever went down and i insisted that i didnt haf anymore pain in e stomach.didnt eat anything for one whole day.and den aft dat onli can eat porridge so the amount i put on was lost instantly.lost 3kg in total. quite alot for just 2 days.yah.lolx.went hiking wif e school today.really madness.we hiked like from macritchie reservoir all the way to bukit timah hill through the forest with all e spiders, brances and mud.eww.and it was super tiring. 11km.manx, i should be proud of myself manx.hahas.but it was kinda fun still.xoxo.gtg.bb(",)

Kings cup

2004-10-13T07:34:00.000-07:00

yayahx...goin to kings cup (thailand) tomorrow for ten days.so goodbye singapore.will see ya in ten days time.yahs.hahax.pretty excited.been training for it for kinda long.hope to be able to play my best and show some improvement.yahx.hahax.but dis week training quite slack lar.cuz tournament cuming so we get to lay back abit.so dis whole wk more on playing games.yahx.lotsa tests and homework squeezed into this three days before we leave.veh jia la.rush all my work lyk siao.but now that its over, time to enjoy.yahx.just finish packin my stuff. my luggage's really heavy.e max is supp to be 20kg and my mum weighed my luggage and told me it was 40kg when it was actually 4o pounds.scare me.tot i had to unpack half of my things.hahax.yahs.so thought i would like to post one last time b4 leaving tomorrow.pretty excited and all.yahs.hope all e playeres will achieve wad they aim for!!lols!do SINGAPORE proud. and do e sports sch proud toos.all e best everyone.we rawk all e rackets, courts and shuttlecocks!!whoohoo

2004-10-10T01:39:00.000-07:00

whoa..,.its been a really long time since i last updated dis blog yahx?.well.things have been pretty ok and yet sometimes really crazy, so...i guess e phrase "life is like a roller coaster" really applies here/uhhuhs/ so just a little about life during dose days where i didnt haf time to post anything.well, shen lao shi came back as a surprise one day/ i mean everyone was dammit surprised lors.when she came in i just sort of stared, wondering whether i was imagining things anot.hahax.but she came back to let us do a survey den went off aft dat.really miss her ya?.hehes.training has been kinda hell.tiring and more tiring.almost goin early for training every day.really exhausted.and its not llike school's been really relax too.blaax.both sides were really crazy manx.might sound like im complaining but.ok maybe i am. but i sort of dun mind it lahx.dis thursday going to thailand for ten days for tournament.lols.pray dat i dun get bird flu man.hahax.jkjk.well dats all...xoxo..bb

2004-09-19T02:17:00.000-07:00

whoa...its been a damn damn damn long time since i last updated my blog yars?...e hols been kinda madness for me.trainin everyday(not dat im complaining but...) for the first week den on e second wk we go tta stay in the chalet for 3 days...den back to trainin..e chalet was ok lar.not fantastic though but still something lar. played truth or dare at e chalet and it got kinda cheesy and lame.den we decided to tell ghost stories and we talked for awhile before deciding to go and catch forty winks.yahx.

guess dis term hafta work really hard for both my sports and studies liao. kanna from my parents already.die. yahs.plus Kings cup coming le so better jia you. hahax. time to suffer...hafta get ready!! lols.

sad

2004-09-03T07:11:00.000-07:00

i noe it was my fault
its hard to even believe
that i told you its over
that you should actually leave
cause i still loved you
in every single way
i've never let you go
i really want you to stay
but i've made that mistake
i told you to go away
it broke my heart a million times
in every single way
you occupy my mind
and i see you in my dreams
i miss you so much
it's been a billion years it seems
you seem so distant
you're so faraway
the distance's getting bigger
by every night and day
it really hurts me deep
when we can't even be friends
it's like since its over
that's the very end
i really miss you lots
so much it hurts my heart
i really want you back
i never wanted to part
but now i know i can't
cause it's simply just too late
cause your heart's with someone else
or maybe it's just fate
but why is it so difficult
to just let you go
when you so very easily
just left me long ago
as much as i want to be with you
i know there's no such thing
cause if your heart's with another
then there's no use trying
so now i'm giving up
or at least i'm trying to
i've hurt myself this once
again i'll never do

hurtin

2004-08-29T02:38:00.000-07:00

going to sch again.and ive gotta face it again.its getting tougher and tougher each day.it hurts.squeezes my heart.but what can i do.its all my fault.

2004-08-27T06:20:00.000-07:00

tomorrow never came// thats why im here// alone// but dont u even care?

it suckx...yah...nothing ever sux more den spraining ur ankle again!!! grrr...hate it...dis week quite ok lar...though not so gud but...yahx...i survived...yahx...and im proud of that yahx.lotsa work...realli slogged lyk mad dis whole week...yahx...can imagine yahx...last minute test dis afternoon....almost died...yahx...imagine how much i went through...with all e girl fights and blaax...u noe...yahx...and something else onli one person noes off...yahx...pretty tough...today training the whole afternoon i down dere serve and serve...quite sian...but at least got learn new services and tactic and all those things...now noe how to flick without depending on luck liao....gotta go liao...(",)

back hm

2004-08-20T07:00:00.000-07:00

there u stood. in a distance. waiting for me.

geex....back home nows.yahx. came back last night cuz i had e thanksgiving service in PL this morning.went to recieve my kadasamy award...yupx...den hadta give a speech and all, den went to haagen daz and ate ice cream...long time no eat liaox...lolx...den went back to school for trainin and guitar class...e guitar class was fun...i wanna learn! ahx! lolx...yupx...pretty busy day tmr...goin new water centre...and i didnt hand up my consent form...yahx...so dead...but nvm...had friendly today...played wif NTU...not bad la...but i think we won most of our matches...yahx...

...

2004-08-16T21:59:00.000-07:00

my heart. my mind. my soul. dats what you are. my everything

yahx...updating my blog again...den i so suay...come com lab late den end up sitting beside e...e... dat ewwww guy...yahx...damn wad sia...den he is damn noisy lahx....sighx...came back to school on sunday...training was tiring yesterday...shoulder aching now....argh...lolx...yahx...on thursday hafta run 3.2x2 again...sucker...as usual...im dreading thursdays...but gud thing i can go back on thursday nite...cuz e next day got thsnksgiving in PL...den hafta attend cuz of the kadasamy award...yahx... hafta give speech and all so i guess im screwed....yahx...sighx...now got new chinese teacher...hmmm...so wad one...make us sign contract...den we tell her we dun wanna sign cuz we say we dun agree den she say dun care...still hafta sign...damn stoopid lorx...liddat still considered contract meh?...oh... one mur thing...RONALD SUSILO won LIN DAN!!! whoohoo! so pro can!!?!! straight sets summore....wah lao....hope he can win a olympic medal for singapore!!! all e way pple!

back home

2004-08-13T06:09:00.000-07:00

the way memories work...dey just dont wanna disappear but keep on lurking at e back of your mind

yeah...finally home! ahax. got muscle aches all over my whole leg...damn suan...dunno why oso...sianz. e swimmers even worst...they were lyk aching lyk hell den sit down or stand up oso difficult...pity dem sia...we all muscle ache oso not dat bad larx...still can move abit...hahax. today had training as usual...yahx...den before dat we got some kinda personal enrichment prog...den i was posted to guitar...damn suang sia...i've always wanted to learn dat manx! hahax...but den so suay...i first day only...den just started tuning...den my string burst! ahahax...bt nvm lar...at least dickson one oso burst so im not e onli one...hehex.yahx...den we could loan e guitar back to play...den just now was trying to play....budden still kinda hopeless...no basics yet...wait for my mum come back den i ask her...

today training...e p6s came...yahx...for some kinda interview to see if they are suitable to come to sss anot...hahax...three of my jrs made it this far...hope dey get in!!! lolx...den dey came for our training aft dat...budden they lyk onli do a lil bit of agility den finish liao...hahax...

budden today kinda sad la...shen lao shi last day at school le! will miss her lots yah...is lyk me and nessa last minute make a card for her...den try to remember as many cheng yus as possible to write to her...sia la...lyk writing compo liddat...so jia la...sighx...i dun wanna new teacher lehs...its lyk so funni liddat...so used to shen lao shi...den now sudd diff le... will haf difficulties adjusting manx...sighx

2004-08-10T01:28:00.000-07:00

killing my nightmare.freaking my dreams. you are the monster in my mind

hmm...lets see...todays tuesday le and tonite im goin back to my hostel liao...yesterday was national day and in e afternoon at abt 3 i think my sis and dad went to watch the national day parade...hahax...me didnt wanna go...so hot waste time...ill rather go shopping...ya...so spent my whole afternoon at suntec city....and buy buy and buy...hahax...ya...national day over le so back to work...nv bring my english work back so im so screwed...needa go back tonite and quickly finish it manx or im dead!!! argh!

2004-08-06T00:00:00.000-07:00

the day i told you that you didn't mean a thing to me was the day i lied to you.

yupx...back at home le, had sum kinda celebration today at school...yupx...let of early...though not so early.de celebration was kinda funni...is lyk my class put up a dance and den alex kept saying we'll win...den in e end we never win anything at all...so funni...den 1E put up a skit sort of...and they married my "laopo" away!!! how can???...hahax.yahx. kinda sianz now...and one more thing...im startin to play neopets again!! whoohoo...dunno why suddenly starting to play it again...quite fun leh...but dis will prob wear of soon lah hahax.yahx yahx...im bored bored bored...duh...

blaax

2004-08-01T22:51:00.000-07:00

yahx...back to sch and all...hahax...forgot totally about updating my blog over e weekends...lolx so im here blogging now.yahx. now a few pple from my class doin e national day thingy and i dunno if im supposed to be in e committee but...think shld not be lah...so i come here and slack for 1 period. juz now had to sing e national day songs...manx...damn sian sia...lolx...well, kinda bored dis few days...my weekends were equally bad...damn sian...ya...went to support e sec twos in their charity thingy den went shopping wif my mum den went home and blaax blaax blaax...yahx...im getting realli crappi now and all so i think i better stop here le...

2004-07-25T22:56:00.000-07:00

heyys.damn sian nows...ya...waiting for 2.15 to meet mr mak so come library n blog ya...hahax. so sianx.manx im so damn damn damn screwed! i didnt bring my track suit back cuz i forgot we had to wear it tmr....ahhhhxx!!! die...

wad if

2004-07-23T05:47:00.000-07:00

silence

hurhur

2004-07-19T22:51:00.000-07:00

heyys...mi now in sch...well things are lyk realli normal dis wk...everything e same lorx...just dat today we went to e esplanade wif ms chua...was quite fun lah...juz dat we were dere for lyk realli short so we practically could not do much...lolx...hahax...but we were dere for lyk a project so we were lyk busy goin around for lyk information n stuff...hahax..n de library dere's realli nice yahx...hahax...den we got a cookie n blaax...ya...later trainin at 3...shuckx

trust

2004-07-17T00:16:00.000-07:00

At night outside my window,
I hear tiny birds sing.
And whilst my sleep's elusive,
they go on twittering.
There is no sun to warm them,
nor can they see the trees.
But they go on trusting God
that He will meet their needs.
So no need to wait for dawning,
a thankful song to share.
It matters not to them
if dark or night is there.
Their songs are raised in trust
to their Father's endless giving.
His faithfulness of care,
the rise of sun and setting.
The rain that they may drink,
cool air so refreshing.
Their Creator giving love,
His manifested blessings.
Oh, if only when darkness comes
and troubles of every kind,
We would listen to the birds singing
and keep them in our mind.
For no matter what's before us,
or how dark our night may be,
If little birds can sing at night,
surely so can we

whoa

2004-07-16T05:53:00.000-07:00

manx.am i supposed to b going whoa? huh? or wad?why cant u understand!!!argh grrr!!!

:(

2004-07-10T02:48:00.000-07:00

-the print u left in my heart will always be dere-
-oh man-
-waddahack-

regretting

2004-07-09T05:42:00.000-07:00

i dunno why. dis is supposed to b e right thing to do and i've done it. but it doesnt feel right at all...infact, it feels down right wrong. i feel lyk ive made e most horrible mistake of mi life. im so SCREWED!

2004-07-07T19:39:00.000-07:00

...sobz...

...sianz

2004-07-07T19:36:00.000-07:00

sighx.realli kinda sianx...finally can blog le. sigh...dis whole wk internal trials den i bai ka den cannot play... argh!

...ankles!!!...aRgh

2004-07-03T23:57:00.000-07:00

heyys.seems lyk it realli lyk i onli update it once a week...pretty pathetic but...wad 2 do?...busy lax.hehes.well dis week's been pretty fine.i mean training was kinda "slack". cuz we were in transition or sumthing. den of all things i go sprain my ankle den next week internal trials probably cannot play manx. sianx. well friday saturday got p6 trials den we stayed over friday night. hehex...kinda shiok without anyone else in e boarding house...lolx. e p6s quite gud sia...hope my jr...esp cherie can get in manx!!!!ahahahax.hehe. tmr youth day so holiday.no need go back to sch until at night. lolx. stoppin here le...bb :)

why its so hard

2004-06-26T05:00:00.000-07:00

i dunno wad 2 say.but when u play a game,there can onli be one winner n there will definitely be a loser. n when u are competing, u risk getting urself realli disappointed jux so that dere may b a chance for u 2 b victorious. n yah. its ironic. y do i still bother competing. dun ask mi cux i seriously haf no answer to dat. i dunno why. i mean, yah, take for example today, semis 4 doubles. lost. yah. n dats dat. n ok. i noe. crying n feeling sad n disappointed over a game is lyk totally no use n i know e right thing to do is to sit back, think and reflect n learn from ur mistakes. but i jux cant do e right thing. i mean, its hard manx. i try but, c'mon lah, wad can i do, i feel disappointed n so...yahx.i mean its kinda hard to except it. its kinda tough to lose n say straight away say, ive done my best. esp when u haf expectations. ok, maybe not many pple realli pressured me. but i did let my partner down badly.i knew how badly she wanted 2 enter e finals cuz she wanted it as much as i wanted it. but i simply screwed up. cuz totally lost my senses, didnt noe wad e hack on earth i was playing. n from dere i screwed up even worse until. lyk hitting out, half court, manx.thinking back, i could wack myself instead of e shuttle cock!freak.yah. den it was lyk game over! whoa. big time manx!sighx. so yah. im feeling realli disappointed lah. but wad to do. wad's done cant be undone so, im trying to forget it n start anew.yah. well, i guess dis tournament's not dat bad aft all. i mean considering how long ting and i got to train our doubles, can say dat dis is kinda ok le. but its still not e same. argh.nvm. dere i go again. well, n i guess it puts mi back n reminded mi on wad my goals are n my reason for training and all. well, seems lyk dis is being positive n im supposed to be feelin better but, guess dats not e case here. ok. better stop here. goin back to sch le. n de first day of sch's my b'day! how bad can dis wk get???

back to sch...ARGH or AHH!

2004-06-25T05:59:00.000-07:00

sighx. ok. i havent blogged in here for lyk dunno how long liao. but dun expect some essay long compo or wadeva cuz dis holiday is lyk nothing or nothing?. yahx. dats it. ok not dat im complaining but i will admit, i hardly had anytime to go out wif mi frens or catch up wif old buddies dat i actualli planned to do. yahx. but, its not all bad lahx. having tournament's fun .yahx. no doubt. especially around dis time...e semis n stuff lyk dat. yahx. all e doubles pairs got into e semis so its lyk whoa!!! yahax.! well dtas it manx. tmr's e big show down between me n ting against macey n vanessa. hmm. pretty tough huh?. but we wont give up without a fight! NO WAY! all e way manx. ok. fine i admit, im juz encouraging myself. hehex. but, im applying mi psychology lessons mah! im a gud student ok!?. hahax. jkjk. well, nomatter wad, just do our best n god will do e rest! yuppix. fight hard everyone fr SSS! WE ARE E CHAMPIONS. no matter wad, champions at heart!

dread

2004-06-18T21:16:00.000-07:00

okiex.im dreadin e match later.cux of e stoopid blister on my foot! arghx. i mean it realli hurts. i dunno wad happen to it oso. it was lyk burning pain den i went to see e doctor last nite. den he helped mi bandage it den say inside e blister got water. so disgusting. den i could not even put weight on dat foot n i was walking on one foot e whole night. yahx. todays better at least can walk but still painful. hope i can play later. it ll b damn wasted if i pull out now manx. sighx. sad :(

1st round

2004-06-18T03:47:00.000-07:00

2day was e first day first round of e cheers national age grp...quite ok lah...made quite a few mistakes but still managed to win. yahx. gud thing lah. down dere e draft veh jia la ahx... is lyk u play at one side got a lot of wind den keep hitting out. sianx. den my opponent keep takin her own sweet time. den purposely adjust her shoe. den dunno do wad just not to serve so quickly...so irritated manx. but shouldnt realli bother lahx. so when its my service i purposely dun wait for her den just serve...dun give her time to rest..hehex...yahx...well another match...2nd round tmr. hope to get through it but i haf dis stooopid damn painful blister on my foot now n it realli hurts!!! arGH!!!

bored

2004-06-16T06:02:00.000-07:00

yah...exactly manx...i am DAMN BORED!!!yah...c'mon manz...hu would lyk spending e hols at home???...tell mi hu...n hu would lyk hols wif piano lessons?...hmmm...ok lah...not dat bad lah...im making myself sound so damn pathetic...but no doubt dis holiday's boring...uhhuhx. well today's not dat bad though...got ling, ting n sam cuming to my house...dint realli entertain dem lah...prob made dem watch mi n my sis play e com...yahz...but it's still better to haf pple wif ya rites?..hahax...but in between kana my piano lesson...hahax. yah. day was pretty routine aniway. went for training den went for kunch...den...hmmm...den e four of us got nice show to see. but too bad onli watch e first part. we saw. ** n ** together at e food court...hmmm... can dere b anithing?...ahahahaz. dat person keeps denying huh?...lolx...i think dey next time wont dere go vista point for lunch le. scarly meet us again den we down dere interuptin dem...hahahax...whoa...scarly now dat person reading dis den i DIE! hahahax...but aniwae oso nv say hu wad. yahz. hehex. was damn funni sia...cuz at first e 4 of us onli saw **...den aft awhile behind him was **...den we were lyk " WHOA!!! " hahahax...ok...enuf nonsense le...better stop here.lolx

new haircut?...not realli

2004-06-15T02:25:00.000-07:00

yah...juz went to e hairdresser's today...juz went to trim my hair...now its lyk neither here nor there...cant tie properly yet cant leave it down...manx singapore's really damn hot nowadays...is lyk all i hafta do is get out of e aircon room for abt 10 sec n ill start sweating...uhhuhs...ok mayb cuz i perspire easily...but i mean u can realli feel e heat...manz! i realli wish dere was winter in singapore...hahax...imagine wad fun dere will b...yah...but act winter oso not dat gud lah...ok mayb im being paranoid budden dat sunday i went 2 watch e day aft tmr...whoa...its a damn freakin' nice show yah...damn exciting but realli scary...i was lyk grippin my chair so tightly...hahax...can u imagine if u were caught in dat time...den there's immediate freezing...den u sudd juz freeze dere...my gosh...pretty frightening...but dat will lyk happen in dunno how many million years later (or so i hope)....hahax...dis wks been pretty bleak...nothin much. jux e usual training routine...yah...(",)

hMmmH

2004-06-10T20:26:00.000-07:00

its been quite a long time since i updated huhs?...yah...lolx...next wk cheers age grp start le...so fast...gotta jia you hehex...lolx...now parents not in singapore...tmr got freedom...lolx

slAcKinG

2004-06-02T18:41:00.000-07:00

IM NOW IN CHINESE CLASS!!! SHEN LAO SHI"S CHINESE CLASS!!!! AHAHAHAAZ...SHE SAY WANNA BLOG DEN DUN WRITE WAD CLASS IM IN....BUDDEN I PURPOSELY WRITE!!!!BOW SHE ASKING ME TO " CHA DIAO"!!!! HAHAX....BETTER GO OFF LE LAHZ...HAHAZ....

I bElieVe iN mIraCles

2004-06-01T06:43:00.000-07:00

ahahaz...okok...todays been quite okies for mi! lols...first... had tournament or asian jr in e morning...lost to wei qi as expected 11-3 11-1...ok lah... not as bad as i expected lah...lolx...den mi tot e trials were over...came back to sch for training...den val told us dat e top 4 of each grp get into sec round...den act i cannot one lah...thankx to sam's sis vanessa...let mi walk over...den i considered one of e top 4...ahahaz!!!! damn miraculous yah?...lolx...so mi quite happi lor...although next round is still hopeless lah...but at least...u noe...juz go 4 e experience lah...lolx...dis wk quite suang...can skip so much lessons! ahahax! budden i think next wk we come back to sch sure blur lyk sotong one lah...hahax! well...guess mi gta stop here le!bb...

WALKOVER!

2004-05-29T02:06:00.000-07:00

ahahaz...ok...i sound so bad...pple kana injured den i so happi...i so xin zai le huo...lolx...well today supp play wif sam sis...den heard she pulled her hamstring...so walkover...hahax...okok...i should'nt b luffing lahzz...lolx...sighx...kinda lyk a miracle ya...lolx...sighx...better stop writing le...bb

down and out

2004-05-28T05:58:00.000-07:00

heys heys...yah...feeling errr...blue?...aiya wadeva lah...its been a long time since i've updated dis blog...haven touched e comp in a freakin long time dat i feel as if i dun realli noe how to use it now...okok...i admit...it isnt dat long lah...but its been 2 wks!!! harlo???...heard of mi surviving two weeks without touchin e comp??? okok fine...enuf of dis...mi weeks been ok onli lah...not much realli...well onli today i noe mi class made mi chinese teacher realli damn pissed...okok....so lao shi, if u r reading dis...sorry ok?...we didnt mean to make u so angry! sorri kaes???!!!...ahahaz...well...tmr got some asian junior trials...but its kinda hopeless lah...cuz its under 18...so we'll prob kana thrashed...but juz doin it for e experience...lolx...plus getta miss sch for three days?...hows dat man?...ok...so im not feelin dat blue animur...(",)

dots...wad's up?

2004-05-19T21:53:00.000-07:00

sianz...sianz...now havin library period sia...kinda bored lah... dis is lyk mi first update in a damn damn damn long time lah... sia...no time marz...lolx...well dis week kinda sianz...so noth much to write lor...juz everyday...train train train...study study study..sighx...well yesterday went upper pierce reservoir to run...den run n run n run...ok lah... i admit...nv realli run alot lah...juz run 10 sets of uphill lah...but is realli run until tired lah...but we onli run until 5 sumthin den we walk walk n "kan feng jin" until abt 6.30...come back kinda late...den rush rush rush for dinner...lolx...den prep time damn funni lah...ok...but i lazy to type e details lah...ahahaz...hmmm...tmr goin pulau ubin...kinda excited lahz...ahahax...heard alot of rumors abt e island abt all e ghosts n all...ahahaz...dats wad im excited abt...uncle james will b bringing us arnd at nite to look out for dis kinda stuff...ahahaz...dats why mi cant wait...okok...stop here le..bb

...mi new blog...

2004-05-15T01:15:00.000-07:00

heys pple. dis is my new blog. duh. ahahaz. well. something happened to mi old blog and everything went bonkus. den i was lyk kinda sian to sort it out. so juz decided to make a new one. yah. dats all for today.