i dunno wad 2 say.but when u play a game,there can onli be one winner n there will definitely be a loser. n when u are competing, u risk getting urself realli disappointed jux so that dere may b a chance for u 2 b victorious. n yah. its ironic. y do i still bother competing. dun ask mi cux i seriously haf no answer to dat. i dunno why. i mean, yah, take for example today, semis 4 doubles. lost. yah. n dats dat. n ok. i noe. crying n feeling sad n disappointed over a game is lyk totally no use n i know e right thing to do is to sit back, think and reflect n learn from ur mistakes. but i jux cant do e right thing. i mean, its hard manx. i try but, c'mon lah, wad can i do, i feel disappointed n so...yahx.i mean its kinda hard to except it. its kinda tough to lose n say straight away say, ive done my best. esp when u haf expectations. ok, maybe not many pple realli pressured me. but i did let my partner down badly.i knew how badly she wanted 2 enter e finals cuz she wanted it as much as i wanted it. but i simply screwed up. cuz totally lost my senses, didnt noe wad e hack on earth i was playing. n from dere i screwed up even worse until. lyk hitting out, half court, manx.thinking back, i could wack myself instead of e shuttle cock!freak.yah. den it was lyk game over! whoa. big time manx!sighx. so yah. im feeling realli disappointed lah. but wad to do. wad's done cant be undone so, im trying to forget it n start anew.yah. well, i guess dis tournament's not dat bad aft all. i mean considering how long ting and i got to train our doubles, can say dat dis is kinda ok le. but its still not e same. argh.nvm. dere i go again. well, n i guess it puts mi back n reminded mi on wad my goals are n my reason for training and all. well, seems lyk dis is being positive n im supposed to be feelin better but, guess dats not e case here. ok. better stop here. goin back to sch le. n de first day of sch's my b'day! how bad can dis wk get???

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